Over the last several weeks the how and why we (my Ex and I) came to the decision of using donor insemination have been in my thoughts.
The thought process boiled down to the desire to have these children. They are as silly and smart and beautiful as I ever hoped they would be.
I had always wanted to be a dad. Long before I had any idea that biologically I could not. Mentally and emotionally I knew I would be a great dad. Even when they drive me crazy I love them.
Turning to donor insemination was the next step in our desire to create these children. I know now I was not aware of all the issues this decision would lead to. But I knew without those decisions these children would not have been. I continue to ask questions so that when and if they do I can perhaps help them find or work towards answers.
Our donor at this juncture must know he has helped our family and others to exist. My past questions to the cryobank have certainly clued him in. What he thinks and wonders I and my children may never know.
I write today to say thank you for allowing me to be a dad. I write to say thank you for giving them life. I write to wish you and your family a healthy and happy New Year. Perhaps one day I can say that in person.